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Michael
I miss doing art, feeling like I'm surpassing my limits and reaching new highs. I know I take far too long to advance and learn, and my progress when actually doing art is slow and unsteady, but I still enjoyed it like any other artist does. But this whole thing with my tablet constantly malfunctioning and having this back-and-forth discussion with the manufacturer has drained me of all will to create, even if, with the help of friends, I'm managing to get a replacement shipped soon.
Doing some traditional art has helped with the longing for creation momentarily, it seems. I do enjoy it, nearly more than the digital medium - wish I had a proper camera and photography equipment to photograph it and make it my main form of art. But I struggle with framing and making it look nicer, lighting at my office doesn't help a lot in that regard. So it looks specially nicer to me, and whoever sees it in person. I guess it makes seeing it in person more novel?
On another note, work this week was brutal, some kids are specially bad certain weeks. I feel like my head is gonna explode. Kids at my internship are nicer, kinder, and it's the first time I've felt wanted and loved by students, in a long while. They're all eager to hug me, chat with me, and generally just be around me. Younger children are a blessing in the world and it makes up for the meanness of my 5th graders.
I've also been feeling more connected to God and my religion as a whole... Specially St. Michael the Archangel. I truly feel like sometimes he is directly watching over me, defending me with his sowrd of light and shielding me with his wings. It's an amazing feeling. I hope I can, rather sooner than later, portray him with my art in a manner that faithfully depicts his light and grace.
Doing some traditional art has helped with the longing for creation momentarily, it seems. I do enjoy it, nearly more than the digital medium - wish I had a proper camera and photography equipment to photograph it and make it my main form of art. But I struggle with framing and making it look nicer, lighting at my office doesn't help a lot in that regard. So it looks specially nicer to me, and whoever sees it in person. I guess it makes seeing it in person more novel?
On another note, work this week was brutal, some kids are specially bad certain weeks. I feel like my head is gonna explode. Kids at my internship are nicer, kinder, and it's the first time I've felt wanted and loved by students, in a long while. They're all eager to hug me, chat with me, and generally just be around me. Younger children are a blessing in the world and it makes up for the meanness of my 5th graders.
I've also been feeling more connected to God and my religion as a whole... Specially St. Michael the Archangel. I truly feel like sometimes he is directly watching over me, defending me with his sowrd of light and shielding me with his wings. It's an amazing feeling. I hope I can, rather sooner than later, portray him with my art in a manner that faithfully depicts his light and grace.